All In A Year’s Time…

Hello! Hope this post (or email) finds you well. I am currently sitting at the mother-in-law’s house so the hubby can get his NFL football draft fix. Waiting on Teddy Bridgewater to get drafted and also to see who the Bengal’s pick. (He’s hoping Bengals get Bridgewater…)

First things first… I went to the endocrinologist on Monday. She was happy and a little surprised that I have lost as much weight as I have with the complications I have… she said “you’ve lost that much weight and battled PCOS, you must really be working your butt off” lol I said well I have trainers who are working my butt off 😉 at any rate, she put me on medicine to handle some of the issues with PCOS to try to bring hormones into balance. She said it should really help my progress. The first couple of days taking the medicine I had some rough side effects which I hadn’t expected. But today I didn’t experience anything as rough as I did the first few days so I’m hoping I am adjusting. I don’t  want to take meds forever…I am hoping that I will eventually be able to get to a place nutritionally where I can balance things naturally. But this is where I am right now and if it helps the process then I will go with it. I found out today that I have low vitamin D. Which is weird because I eat a lot of salmon and have been getting outside in the sun a lot more since the frozen-era ended…but that’s what she told me. She wants me to take a vitamin D pill, but I think I’m going to try to do it nutritionally. I don’t know if it’ll work but I would prefer doing it naturally rather than adding another medicine to my routine. We shall see.

Well… I am excited about this next section of this post… 🙂 I saved the best for last.

May 14th makes for my 1 year anniversary with Body Under Construction, Rob Jones & Christy Raynor. I was going to try to wait until the 14th to weigh but I decided to go ahead and get it in today. I am down 7 lbs and 4.5 inches since my last check-in (March)

It was all good news but then I decided to compare today’s numbers to my starting numbers… and it’s just ridiculous…

So here ya go…

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I am just shocked to looked at some of those starting numbers and then to see today’s. It’s surreal really…and undeniable. I am often telling people that I don’t see the change as much but this just smacks me in the face. If I was to give any kind of advice it’d be this: focus on one day at a time. Get up and think, what can I do today to further my progress, to get closer to my goal? Stay the course and work hard every day and expect set-backs, failures, and mishaps. Dust yourself off and let the next day be a fresh start. Consistency & persistence….

I still have a long way to go… but I am expecting this year to be bigger than last year…. I’m getting the hormones in check and I’ve established a lot of healthy habits and I am exercising 4-5 times a week. I can only go up from here. (or is it down ;-)) I’m ready to get it going!

Glo-Run (my first 5K) is in 2 weeks! I am so excited and it’s gonna be so much fun! 🙂 It’s gonna be the first of many 5K’s.

Well this is all I have to report for now. I hope the rain and storms fizzle down tomorrow, I have a run date with my buddy at the park and I don’t wanna miss it!

Happy Mother’s Day weekened to you all ❤

 

Hello!!!

I just thought I’d drop in for a moment to chat and not talk about food. 🙂

Hope everyone is having a wonderful 2014 so far… February has been one HECTIC month for me work-wise. So many changes going on and tons of overtime and things to learn… I get a headache just thinking about it! For the most part the added stress hasn’t deterred me too much. I had a rough week the first week it all hit us. I had to cancel my workout sessions because there were just NOT enough hours in the day to get everything done…and that week was hard nutritionally. I am telling you, getting busy and running all the time partially how I got in this position of being over weight and I can see why. You get busy, you eat quick and easy foods, you lose sleep, you neglect your workouts, etc. It can spiral out of control really fast. Thankfully for me it was just a low week and I picked right back up the following week. I think one of the keys to success, or to my success to this point, is being forgiving when you get side-tracked. By forgiving I mean you brush it off and you move on, try to learn a lesson from it and analyze what you could do better. Before, I would have a bad week and it’d turn into a bad couple of weeks, then months…and you know the rest. Now I’ve stopped beating myself up over it. I take responsibility for my actions but I don’t wallow in self-pity and guilt. I learned something duuring that bad week and that is that I can be a stress-eater… I get stressed and I find myself resorting to food, particularly junk food, not just because I am rushed and not prepared, but because I am trying to cope or deal with the stress…through eating. I don’t know where I picked that up and exactly when I started doing it but I was quick to realize all of those feelings and my actions. So hopefully, next time I will be able to recognize it and prevent it from getting out of hand. That’s what it’s all about folks~ it’s a process, it’s a journey, and you have to learn as you go. Don’t be afraid to face those feelings and look at the truth… even if you don’t like what you see. It is within you to change those things and grow from every failure, struggle and set-back. To me that is a tell-tale sign that my mentality about this whole thing has changed. I have learned that this change is about life-style changing and as long as I am taking steps forward 90% of the time then it’s not the end of the world if I have moments of weaknesses. We are human and to expect perfection from ourselves is a standard we’ll never meet.

I will also say that I know my mentality has changed when my legs are SCREAMING in soreness and I get up and go to Zumba anyways. I was laying in the floor last night, stretching my back and playing with Zoe and my legs and shoulders are so sore and 6:30 was approaching and I was just like, “I do not want to go.” I thought of a thousand reasons not to. And went around in circles with myself… “Tracy isn’t going” “yea but I told Katie I would” “but my legs are really sore, they should probably rest” “exercising them would loosen them and make them feel better” “I should stay home and clean up, cook dinner for Troy when he gets home.”  And round and round I went… but in the end I reminded myself to hush up the excuses and go get it done. I felt so good afterwards, and as much as working out makes me feel better, I was more excited that I overcame the inner voice and excuses and pushed through it. That just stands out to me as one of those little triumphs that will ultimately lead me to success.

Speaking of success… it’s so funny how you view yourself vs how others view you. This past week I’ve been enamored with compliments after compliments. When I look at myself~ I see what’s left to do…and very little change. But then people tell me everywhere I go how different I’m looking and how they can tell… and I look at myself and think they are crazy and they are just being nice. But considering it’s such a wide variety of people (church, work, random Facebook peeps) I realize that not everyone is just “being” nice. It’s really motivating to hear it…and rewarding to know that even though I don’t see it the same as everyone else does, something must be changing. And it’s uplifting to know… it fuels the drive. Not because I need compliments or people to tell me I look good, quite frankly, I hate attention, so no, that’s not it. It is just reassuring that all this soreness and hard work is making a difference, and for me that difference is my health. I just strive to be healthy.

Anyways, those are the thoughts floating around my head this evening. I just took a stroll through some old photos and am appalled at where I started… Just helped me see that I have come a long way… I am focused on the journey ahead  and I appreciate where I am but I also look forward to where I am going. 🙂

I just decided I will share with you one of those photos…which isn’t an easy thing but it’s a part of this process and so I am going to give you a glimpse of my starting point and one day soon I’ll post a pic of where I am now.

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Nevermind me ( :/ ) How cute is my nephew and how silly is my sister? LOL

Appreciate the journey…. it’s a beautiful thing overcoming adversity and reclaiming your life. It doesn’t happen overnight but it is very much worth the daily grind of getting there. 🙂

Good night my friends.

 

 

p.s. Featurette coming soon, high-lighting my dear friend with MS and her journey…stay tuned, I promise it’s coming! ❤

What’s In A Name?

I’ve posted recently on Facebook and even mentioned on here the desire to come up with a better name for the blog. I feel like I should explain my reasons and desires for a new name…

It’s not that I don’t like Finding Amy… in the beginning (over  a year ago) it made sense…. even though I never loved it for a long term name, I had to put something so I could get started.

The name Finding Amy sort of implies that I am lost and or that I don’t know who I am. Which is not true. I do know who I am and I am not lost. 🙂 Quite the opposite actually. I realize that it describes the journey as I navigate my ways to a healthier self, but I don’t like that it’s specifically about me and then those implications I just mentioned.

Yes, I blog for myself… it is very therapeutic in fact to be transparent and to document ones journey… it builds accountability and keeps me focused. At the same time, one of the things that drives me is the feed back and comments that I get from YOU who tell me that my journey and openness is inspiring. It gives this whole deal a sense of purpose and I want it to be about us all learning and growing and journeying to better ourselves. Whether you read just to keep up with me or you read for other reasons, I don’t want it to solely be about me…. Hey maybe I should call it Losing Amy. ha ha.

I don’t necessarily want to completely commercialize the blog but I do want it to be solid and focused and with purpose. I’ve seen them out there… there are prime examples such as fromfattofitchick.blogspot.com/ and so on. Take a look at the link I posted… you’ll see where I am going with this. She has done and is doing the very thing that I am doing. (I didn’t find her blog until after I had started so I can say that though it is a similar story, we didn’t copy off of one another. 🙂 )

So now you can see WHY I want to change the name. Can you help me come up with something? I feel like there’s an obvious answer and it’s right at the edge of my grasp….I’ve been brainstorming for so long that I just can’t see it…

HELP ME! 🙂

Switching gears for a moment… be looking for upcoming “Features” on the blog. I’ve been wanting to do this for so long and I finally have a volunteer so I am excited to get her story up! My goal is to get it up before February ends. 🙂 I have met so many fabulous and wonderful people who have overcome and are overcoming challenges and I want to highlight their efforts and how they are doing so! Stay tuned!

ONE MORE!

This is an excellent workout song. I really like it when I’m going hard on the treadmill or elliptical. It’s really motivating… 🙂

Enjoy!

Also- I really don’t like the name of this blog. I came up with it on a whim so that I could get started writing, but the more I see it the more I don’t like it. So I am challenging you readers of mine… help me create something better…creative…etc. Toss some ideas around and maybe it’ll get me thinking! If I pick your idea, I’ll come up with some kind of prize or gift or maybe just a hug… but it’d be a really good hug!!!

I don’t have any wise words this evening… just keep working! Get rid of the excuses, ignore the fatigue and pain, push, go for one more…be it rep, mile, inch, minute, whatever it is…get up and do it!

And give yourself grace for when you fail…dust yourself off and get back to it!

Toodles!

MyFitness Pal …

For a few weeks now I haven’t been very disciplined with my diet. I’ve been “mindful” but I haven’t really controlled it very well. Well I got back to work this morning. My favorite method of watching what I eat is using the myfitnesspal app/website. It is so easy to track all of your intake during the day and so you are always aware of how many calories you are eating and how many are in each item you are considering eating. It really makes you think about what you are about to eat and I find it helps me plan my day and meals. When you sign up for it you fill out a short profile with the standard information, height, weight, sex, age, and how many pounds you want to lose per week up to two pounds (that is the most that is recommended to lose weight healthily.) The app will then calculate what your calorie goal is for each day. Then as you eat during the day you log it into the app. You can look it up in their database or you can barcode scan it with your phone and it’ll pop up the calorie information. You can change the serving size and it adjusts the calories accordingly. It is one of the best tools… and it is free!! The app is free and so it the website! It’s really cool because at the end of your day you “complete” your journal and the app tells you approximately how much you’ll weigh in 5 weeks if you keep having days like the one you just completed. Really motivates you to keep doing well. There is of course a whole social media aspect to it to where you can be friends with others, if you want to (not a requirement) you can also open your food journal for your friends to see, or you can keep it private. You can also lock it with a password so if you have an accountability buddy you want to be able to see your journal you just give them the password and they can get in, but not all of your friends can see it. You log in your weight (whenever you want) and it will post in the news feed that you lost weight..but it only posts that you LOST, it never gives anyone else what your total weight is. You can also log in your fitness time (30 mins treadmill, etc) and it will add the calories you earned from exercise to your daily total.

All in all it’s a very handy tool. I highly recommend it. If you don’t have a smart phone you can use it from the website, myfitnesspal.com. 🙂

So my first day being disciplined again was a little tough.

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I wasn’t really debating over a piece of pie or anything, but I would eat and in my gut know I was not hungry but mentally I just felt snacky all day…I wanted to munch ALL day long. I didn’t, thank goodness, but it sure did feel like a constant argument in my mind.

Tomorrow I plan to write about emotional eating and how stress effects our desire to eat. I’m just going to write from my personal experience, I do not pretend to be an expert. But I’ve had some added stress the past couple of days and I could tell how it affected my mood and desire to eat… but for now I must go to bed… so stay tuned! GOODNIGHT!

Truth Is….

judge

I find this phrase very interesting. Really puts things into perspective doesn’t it? What do you see when you see an overweight person? Or drug addict? An alcoholic? Do you think, “man, I’m glad I don’t have their problems!” or “I don’t know why they do that, don’t they know how bad it is for them?”

I’m guilty of this. Plain and simple. I’d go as far as to say that we are all guilty of it. I am the first one to admit that I try to convince my loved ones to stop smoking. I will tell my brother or mom in a heart beat how bad it is for them, how it greatly increases their chances of cancer, heart disease, stroke. Yes, I tell them those things because I love them and truly do want them to stop smoking. But do I do it in a loving way? Or do I do it as if I am superior to them? Do I act like I’m noble because I never started smoking? Because the truth is, they have a smoking problem…. but I have a weight problem. Am I just as quick to rattle of the health risks of being overweight?

Anyone familiar with the scripture Matthew 7:3? These words came out of Jesus’ mouth… “Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?” Do we really understand the meaning of these words? To me it’s the same thing as what the image above is saying. We shouldn’t be so quick to point out everyone else’s faults and yet so blind to our own.

I don’t write this as to make anyone feel bad. Just something I’ve been thinking about. I’m trying to not judge people and even when people have obvious flaws, I’m trying to learn to see the good in them and not judge them. Just because someone doesn’t look a certain way, or they are battling an addiction of any kind… just know there is more to that person than you see and if you take a moment to get to know them you might just be surprised at what you find.

Back from Sebatical….

Hello everyone. I bet you thought I forgot about my blog, eh? No, in fact, I did not. I’ve just been waiting on the inspiration to write something the past few weeks. Weeks? Really, I’ve been gone since January…. okay, so February was dedicated to hands-on round the clock care of my mother in law while she recuperated from knee replacement. By the time March and April rolled in I was not really exercising or dieting so to speak…and I probably should have blogged about it as to show my weakness and discuss my difficulties but I think I sort of hid from the blog until I got back into the right head space. So I will try not to disappear again…  I make no excuses, I should’ve been here as I promised to document the journey…so for that I ask forgiveness and promise to do better. Stay tuned, I got lots to talk about!!